He used to be my source of sunshine.
Every morning, Calvin would storm home the front door like he’d just been shot from a cannon screaming a goodbye to the dog then he’d swing my plastic dino a wave and down the driveway to the bus stop he’d go. He was six but with so much energy that made you forget your caffeine. And that grin… it could light that whole neighborhood up.
But something changed.
It started slowly. A missed smile here. A mumbled “good morning” there. Then there were the mornings when he did not want to wear his shoes. The days he complained of a tummy ache and could not tell what caused it. The evenings he could not sleep and prayed that the light in the hall stayed on. And finally, the worst one-he stopped drawing.
My boy loved to draw. He once created the whole zoo in the walls of the guest room using washable markers. But now his papers were white. Or worse –as black and gray swirls have been scribbled over. Torn. Crumpled.
I didn’t want to overreact. Perhaps it was a phase. Maybe he was tired. But my gut convinced me otherwise.
That particular morning I decided to walk him to the bus the entire way. As it is usually the case, I would just sit by the porch and wa ve like always. But that day, I stuck close, observing him hold on to straps of his small backpack as if it may disappear. He did not wave at the driver. He did not glance at the other kids. When the doors on the buses slid open with that characteristic hydraulic hiss, he stopped, as if the steps were of molten lava.
“Go on, sweetheart,” I whispered. “You’re okay.”
He raised his eyes to mine – eyes that were hazy, lips closed – and nodded as he got on board.
Then I saw it.
He wanted to sit up front, but he was told something by the kid a few seats behind, something which I could not hear.< I saw the smirk. I saw another child bump into his friend and point. Calvin’s hand moved to the brim of his cap and he pushed it down. He turned towards the window, and just before tucking his knees up, I saw his sleeve brush the cheek.
Tears.
Then something that I didn’t expect occurred.
The bus didn’t move.
Miss Carmen, our driver since kindergarten, extended her elbow backward one hand at the wheel the other behind her as a sort of safety net. She didn’t say anything. She just reached.
Calvin stared at it for a second…and then, as a man would grab a rope in a drowning attempt, he grabbed it.
And she held on. A long moment passed and they were silent now, the engine humming, and she just stayed like that, her hand in his. Not rushing. Not scolding. Just holding.
The bus finally rolled away. And there I stood, strings of my heart pulled in a dozen directions.
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She parked the bus, switched off the engine, and got down with some purpose that had not appeared before. She didn’t smile or wave. She never went for her clipboard. Instead, she strode up to the parents in the group who were standing by the corner – me included, and stared us right in the eye.
Her voice wasn’t loud. But it did not have to be.
“Some of your kids are hurting people,” she commented.
A few parents blinked. Others were glancing all around as if she could not be speaking to them.
“I’m not here to embarrass anyone,” she then gave it. “But in saying this to you, what occurs on that bus is not acceptable. And I’ve seen enough.”
One dad scoffed. “Are you serious? Kids tease. That’s what they do.”
Miss Carmen didn’t flinch. “Teasing? It is at that point when a child will tell you that your shirt is weird. This is targeting. Intimidating. Such a child is terrified, and he cries morning before school. Don’t you want to tell me, “that’s just kids being kids?”
There was a silence. Thick. Uncomfortable.
Then she turned to me. “ I have observed your son make an effort to disappear into his seat for three weeks. I observed him being tripped on the aisle last Thursday. I but heard one boy shout at him ‘freak’ yesterday. And nobody said a word.
I felt something well up in my throat; perhaps it was shame. Or guilt of not knowing. That I hadn’t done more.
Then she said something which I’ll never forget.
“Well, this is what we are going to do. You talk to your kids. I’ll talk to the too. And we’re going to remedy this. Not tomorrow. Today. Or I start naming names. And take my word for it— I have a list”.
Then she faced about, got back on the bus, and drove away as if nothing had occurred.
For the balance of the day, I was phoning, phoning school, phoning the teacher in Calvin’s class, the guidance counselor. On that night, I called my son and questioned him (truly/questioned him) what was the matter with him.
And he told me.
Concerning the boys at the back who called him names. Concerning the girl that stole his hat and threw it out the window. On how he quit drawing as they told him his pictures were: “creepy” and “baby stuff”.
I was as if I was the worst mother in the world.
But after that, something went different.
The school intervened, parents came up. Apologies were dished out–genuine, rehearsed, but nonetheless. Calvin was permanently transferred to the back of the bus. Miss Carmen informed him that it was the VIP part. She even went further adding even a small “Reserved” sign on his seat.
After two weeks, I ran across him at the kitchen table with markers out and he was drawing a rocket ship. There was a bus driver at the head piloting it in space. And a boy at the front window looking out smiling.
Months passed. The tears stopped. The light came back.
And then one Friday morning I overheard something which made me stand in the hall.
Calvin was speaking to a new kid at the bus stop. The boy was nervous – shifting one foot to another, as the backpack made for an oversized bag. I heard Calvin shouting “Hey, wanna sit with me up front? It’s the best seat.”
The kid smiled, nodded. And upon this, they got on board as well.
The following week I wrote a letter to Miss Carmen. A real one. With ink and paper.
I explained to her what that moment meant to me. How much I owed her. How much Calvin owed her. Why his entire trajectory of his little life changed because she did that which nobody else would, because she held out her hand.
She wrote back in the naughty crooked cursive.
“At times the grown ups forget that backpacks can get terribly heavy if one is not carrying only books.”
That note is still in my purse. It tells me that sometimes, kindness isn’t hulking or noisy. At other times it’s hands that reach out from the past.
And today I appeal to you—as you were seeing someone struggling, would you extend to help him or her? Or were you to just sit and hope that someone else would?
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